but all the things that HAD to get done, got done.
so i guess it's a pretty good example after all
I've had plantar ficeitus before. It went away. This feels different somehow. Every step is excruciating. I don't want to go to work, go to the gym, anything. Hells, I don't want to get out of bed in the morning. Because I know its going to hurt so much. Its getting to the point that I'm not sure I can make it to my appointment on Tuesday.
So you'll have to forgive me if this is short, again, but its been a very long and, yes, pain fullday.
My feet hurt. Or more specific, my foot. See, these a good chance that I've torn the muscle in my foot that holds up my arch. And that hurts like hell. It feels like the bottom of mt foot is alternately like dull needles are being jabed into my foot, and its on fire. I see the orthpedic sergon on Tuesday. Tuesday. They day before Wednesday. Wednesday, that is in fact the Witch Walk. Nature apparently has a sense of humor.
So baring a miracle, I won't actually be WALKING the Witch Walk. But hey, somebody has to watch the raffle prizes, right...
I used to write poetry all the time. Volumes. Now its a only very occasionly thing. But here goes
Sweet boy. Lying next to me
Smelling of milk.
Do you understand the
Of my love?
The cities I would burn
For your smile?
You are the last great
Of my life.
Your daddy was the first.
Dreaming baby dreams
As I kiss your forehead.
I'm actually in bed knitting and writing this.post on my phone. Watched the foosball all day and never got my post in. I had PLENTY of time for pintrest and revelry, not enough to blog apparently. It's not helping that Bubby is drooling on my arm.
I found a very cool pattern for a slouchy bennie hat. I'm knitting it up in a great pumpkin color. I love me some Orange.
Think I'm going to bed now, before I not...type...so good.
In heathen society (of which I think I'm now a member), there is a broad code of ethics that pretty much universally heathens subscribe to. Its called the nine noble virtues. They are : courage, discipline, fidelity, honor, hospitality, industriousness, perseverance, self-reliance, and truth. Its kind of like a road map of how to live with integrity, the way a heathen should. They are pretty universal on how to live a good life anyway. Here's how I see them;
Courage. 'Speak your mind even if your voice shakes' is what I think of when i think of courage. Its not just the ability to fight, but the ability to simply speak up when you're terrified. Courage is something I need to work on.
Discipline. Discipline isn't about going to the gym every day, or vowing to never have another candy bar ever again. Discipline is about going to work everyday when you want to be on the couch. About making sure the bills are paid, the bathroom gets painted, and the laundry is done. Its about doing the little things that have to get done.
Fidelity. Fidelity is sticking with it. With whatever it is for as long as it takes. Sticking with a friendship, a marrage, a family member, a god, anyone. No matter how difficult the path gets. Admittedly, sometimes relationships end, but with fidelity, you've at least given it your best effort, and done everything gyou can to keep with it. (Conversly though, sometimes you have to let go to move on, you know?)
Honor. Honor means, broadly, doing what is right, no matter what. And sometimes that is the hardest thing in the world to do. I mean think about it, how many times a day do you do something that you know is not 'right' even if it's 'legal?
Hospitality. Act within the best interests of everyone. Make the world a better place. Make everyone feel welcome. This are just a couple of examples of hospitality. And yes, I know, you're never going to be able to act in EVERYONES best interests, but even just trying to come up with a way to do so, helps. Its the whole "manifestation of thought " principal. (I had a $20 phrase, I had to use it)
Industriousness. This one I'd like to think I've got in spades. Industriousness boils down to finding your gifts and honing them. Be productive. Do that voo doo that you doo so well. Me, I'm crafty. A lot. So expect even more of that.
Perseverance. If at first you don't succeed, dust yourself off, figure out what went wrong, try again. Basicly, keep at it till its the best you can do. This kind of goes hand in hand with fidelity.
Self-reliance. Not just being able to do for yourself, but also taking responsibility for your actions. Put your ideas into action, then stand behind the action.
Truth. Ahhh, here's the tricky one. Because its not just speaking the truth, its living the truth. Being true to yourself, your dieties, and to your society. Real truth.
These are things that I'm trying to encorperate into my every day life. Some I've got down, some I need a lot of work on.