Monday, August 22, 2011

turns out a little crisis can be cathartic

you all know where i was yesterday, spiritually.  it was kind of an 'on the edge of the abyss'-y place, and quite frankly, a bit scary.  but i did just what i said i was going to do.  got a bottle of wine, lit a fire in the pit in the back yard, and just let everything run its course.  and it was wonderful.  P and i came to an understanding, and F officially stepped into my life.

it was cathartic.

ever since then, it's been like a weight has been lifted.  everything looks, feels, tastes different.  better.  more alive.  this is truly one of the best experiences of my life.  even the little mini basement flood because of the storm last night couldn't bring me down.  hardly any sleep (due to the mopping up), and still cleaned the kitchen almost top to bottom this morning.  i think that's pretty telling (hearth and home remember).

and for the first time in years, i've taken off the pentagram that i've worn every day.  it's been replaced with a smaller simple chain with amber drop beads.  i made it a couple of weeks ago during some mindless crafting as something to keep my hands occupied.

i think that's pretty telling too, don't you?


  1. Not judging! Why do you wear a pentagram? I am super curious.
    ahh a fire pit with you sounds wonderful.

  2. the pentagram is the symbol of the five elements; earth, air, fire, water, and spirit. it's like the cross is for Christians, doesn't matter what type of pagan you are, a pentagram usually has you covered.