Sunday, March 9, 2014

Intuitive Change

i've been painting off and on all day.  not spending more than an hour in front of the canvas.  a little here, a little there.  i've been using new techniques, approaching it in different ways.  i'm using acrylic.  i've fallen in love with it.

this has been the best day in a long time.

noting major has happened.  i've not won the lottery (with the exception of the awesomeness of my family, cause lets face it, i got the winning ticket there), no rich uncle has left me a million dollars, nothing so extreme.  but hubby and i had a wonderful relaxed date last night, and today i've accomplished nothing but art.

this painting is far from over.  what i originally thought i wanted on the canvas isn't what's coming through, and i'm super ok with that.  what's coming out is much more authentic.  see, i got this book on date night last night called Brave Intuitive Painting  and it's really helping me to let go when i paint.  and i need that.  cause i'll let you in on a little secret.  i think i suck.  there is a little voice in my head that is constantly telling me that the ideas i have can never in any way shape or form be translated onto that canvas.  that every doodle i make is shite.  that if anyone should ever throw away her brushes because it's a waste of time, it's me.  that voice tells me i am an awful artist.

but i'm not.  no one is.  and i have to pick up that brush to prove to myself that that voice is a lie.  that what i'm putting on the canvas is beautiful, and lovely, and worthy.  and it is.  it really is.  painting helps me find my voice, my expression.  so i'm not going to stop.  i'm also going to put up pictures of my works in progress on my instagram and facebook accounts as they are worked on.  please give me any criticism you like.  just remember, it's a process, and the work will always be changing as i change as an artist.

1 comment:

  1. It's the process, not the product, that truly matters. Honest! Once I embraced that, art became so much more for me than just pretty things on a canvas. Even the "ugly" things were important.